some lessons

october 4th. lessons learned.

A. talking is always better than keeping it inside.
i've been trying to talk myself out of my feelings of loneliness, rather than face being vulnerable with another person about how i felt. today i broke the silence and talked it out with a good friend. it felt really good.

B. dating doesn't have to be awkward.
i met a guy today. the whole thing was really low key and low pressure. i hope the majority of my experiences are like this. (i'm 25, but i've actually never "dated" in the technical sense before.)

interesting journey my heart's been on this past few years. i've become increasingly ready to explore that side of myself again. i went through a pretty tough break up in college and it took me a while to heal. now my heart's going through a whole new set of challenges, and everything feels ...raw. i'm pretty scared about the whole dating thing, but with all the risks i've taken of late(--some of which have majorly imploded--) i'm fine with being scared.

if nothing else comes of it, tonight was wonderfully reassuring. there are lots decent guys out there. funny that i never really looked.